The cow

I think I just really feel that there is a lot of injustice around abuse, and there is and most people don't realize that they contribute to it, and honestly most people are kept in the dark and distracted.  There is a great video, I will have to find it that highlights it...but in essence, we are still living in the time of the master in the castle throwing food scraps out to the peasants, except no-one kind of realizes it.  The atrocities that happened in the time of Bush, there were no weapons of mass destruction, and the mass killing of the innocent.  And e are all kept distracted, and things like FB, are ways to keep the peasants distracted...you don't have to agree, but it is the way I see and understand how masses of thinking people can allow the financial crises that happened - it was really an illegal ponzi scheme, and people just keep getting away with things...

The majority of the world is kept in the dark about the atrocities and victims blamed as a way to avoid dealing with the crimes.  If you think about the things that you have learned since visiting me, you will see that learnings and truths have helped set you free, in a world which is ready to blame you for the abuse, for not getting over it, for milking the PTSD cow. 

I think there is a bit of an activist is me, never thought of myself as one...but when I hear things like a doctor telling me that incest is a normal part of our society and we need to accept it as part of our culture or reading that the text book of psychiatry as recent as 1972 saying that incest is of benefit to the victim, it helps them become so much better (this reminds me of the fact that being gay was only taken out of the DSM as a pathology in the 70's).  When I am researching this stuff daily - it shocks me, how devastating the research shows CP is to people's lives and yet we have people in the world saying that it is fine, it's all good.  So no it is not a notoriety things, but correcting a wrong.  The problem is, my patients come in wounded often more by societies contempt to why they don't just get over it, or that they are malingering.  You see , Darryl, and the doctor, are the majority unfortunately.  These victims are shunned by even their families (remember the secondary injury) for not getting over what has happened to them.  So I guess I just want to let this 17% of the North American population to know, that they are ok.  That what happened to them is not a normal part of society, that their symptoms are real, that they can get better, and that they are not alone.  I would prefer to do that in a quiet way, as I do not have the temperament for criticism of certain things.  My writing skills, fine, but other things are too painful when they get criticized, so no Ghandi I am not.  Actually I would like to be a genini, have ever since I watched I dream of Genie and blink my eyes and correct the whole world...

I am not feeling down trodden, or questioning my path, I think you misinterpreted that, problem with words, is that we slide meaning into them.  Only trying to figure out the best avenue to help the 17% of these people.